I forgot how awful crying this hard makes a person feel. There's a new feeling, too. Throbs of real heartbreak and feeling the sharp pangs of rebound-girl reality. Thanks a heap, you. Utter abandonment has always been a real favorite of mine.

You say you still love me, but you can't give me a yes or no answer as to whether you want to be with me still. You said me loving you isn't enough anymore. It's your fault, and your fault only, that I'm not there with you to do more. Before I left you promised me that nothing was going to change between us. As soon as I got back here I could feel it. I tried to ignore it, but it was always there.

And today, when you called me and we talked for about two minutes, then said you were going to go; I asked, "You don't want to talk?" and you said, straight up, "No, not really." And that was it. Until our breakup via text messages started, when I started asking you these questions and you were 'just not in the mood' because you never are.

I used to think that you were the air that I breathe. That you were my prince. That I could love you forever. That I need you. And I absolutely hate myself for still thinking all of those things are true.

I think with everything I'm feeling right now, and with everything that's happened to me over this last year and a half with you, I could right a fucking book. And here is where you would usually makes a sexual pun about books fucking, and I would laugh. But now, thinking about the look on your face and the tone in which you would say it, I wipe another tear away and scowl.

/End Scene/

New header and mood theme :OOO

EVERYONE NEEDS TO GO BECOME A WATCHER OF THE COMMUNITY cheese_tart BECAUSE THE PRETTIES THAT ARE MADE THERE = OSM!

DO IT. OR I WILL MAKE YOU TOUCH MY BEE.

I suggest everyone make their way to Vancouver, WA. The weather here is amazing. It's not humid or sticky, it's just fantastic all the way around. Goodgoodgood weather! I love it. I'm going to miss this place so much.

I promise, sometime I'll update with something more important and drama-less, hah.


AND. ROBIN. YOU GIVE THE BEST MUSIC.

So, you all should know by now Alice in Wonderland is one of my favorite Disney movies & it's definitely my favorite story, &&& the Mad Hatter is my favorite person/thing/cartoonman EVER. So~ In This Style Photography is the official name of my freelance photography service! (In This Style is written on the card that is stuck in his hat on the original Mad Hatter artwork)

The journal for my photography is here:

There's no photos uploaded there yet. I'm feeling super lazy after wracking my brain all day trying to think of a naaaame. :< There may be some stuff up there in a little while, or I may just do it tomorrow. We'll see! But it's there if any of you are interested <3

		I will marry Jude Law.
		After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in Caribbean in our fabulous Apartment.
		We will have 18 kid(s) together.
		Our family will zoom around in a Blue Highlander.
		I will spend my days as a Fashion Photographer, and live happily ever after.

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Some NSFW due to language & themes.
( Come up & try my new parts )

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( blame not my cheeks )

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( The rest are here. )

I've decided to start just a basic blog that everyone who goes to the site can see.
This morning brought terrible news. For some reason I felt I needed to vent and do whatever else somewhere other than LJ. I'll still use this to keep up with the rest of my friends. I just prefer my LJ to stay completely private.

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